TROUBLES
In August, I received a letter from my insurance, saying that I must be available for a "phone interview" on a date in September. This would be to "review my status." I phoned my representative, and told her that my oncologist had given me the month of Setember "off treatment" so that I could return to the mission field. I asked "Can we do the interview now?"
The representative said, "No, but don't worry --we can do it in October....no problem."
When we arrived home, in October, I had a letter saying that she had cancelled me out of the system, for "failure to have phone interview." I would have to re-apply for insurance, and wait.
Interesting.....I had been writing the words "I wait" on my hand, everyday, for weeks. I felt it was what I was having to learn. I have a lot of "not yet on the horizon, promises from God," including a promise for healing. When we write to pastors in Ukraine, or Russia, they simply write back, "We wait." It has always made me laugh -- as it sounds to me as if that is now their primary activity! Well, it is now MY primary activity. I wait on the Lord! I wait on Him to move my insurance along. I wait on Him for treatment, and for the strength and grace to get through treatment! I wait on Him, that I may feel better. I wait!
I am not able to go on our next scheduled mission trip -- I will be here, in Indiana, getting treatment, and Dennis will travel alone. (He will go from one set of dear friends to the next -- he will not really ever be alone -- but I will miss him!). I will pray for him everyday, pray for the ministry of every day, and I will wait!
What a blessing that this little trip is 3 weeks long, and not one of our more standard 4-5 month trips! PRAISE GOD!!
I have learned to rest when I need to -- even if it is several times a day. I am learning -- still -- to hang on to God while the winds of trouble swirl around me (I thought I had learned that before, but have you noticed that each succeeding wind seems to blow harder??) "Living things grow...", we learned a long time ago, and growing involves CHALLENGE.
Dennis tells me that "every test is a chance to excel!" and I want to do just that! WHY NOT? What is the option?
The representative said, "No, but don't worry --we can do it in October....no problem."
When we arrived home, in October, I had a letter saying that she had cancelled me out of the system, for "failure to have phone interview." I would have to re-apply for insurance, and wait.
Interesting.....I had been writing the words "I wait" on my hand, everyday, for weeks. I felt it was what I was having to learn. I have a lot of "not yet on the horizon, promises from God," including a promise for healing. When we write to pastors in Ukraine, or Russia, they simply write back, "We wait." It has always made me laugh -- as it sounds to me as if that is now their primary activity! Well, it is now MY primary activity. I wait on the Lord! I wait on Him to move my insurance along. I wait on Him for treatment, and for the strength and grace to get through treatment! I wait on Him, that I may feel better. I wait!
I am not able to go on our next scheduled mission trip -- I will be here, in Indiana, getting treatment, and Dennis will travel alone. (He will go from one set of dear friends to the next -- he will not really ever be alone -- but I will miss him!). I will pray for him everyday, pray for the ministry of every day, and I will wait!
What a blessing that this little trip is 3 weeks long, and not one of our more standard 4-5 month trips! PRAISE GOD!!
I have learned to rest when I need to -- even if it is several times a day. I am learning -- still -- to hang on to God while the winds of trouble swirl around me (I thought I had learned that before, but have you noticed that each succeeding wind seems to blow harder??) "Living things grow...", we learned a long time ago, and growing involves CHALLENGE.
Dennis tells me that "every test is a chance to excel!" and I want to do just that! WHY NOT? What is the option?
posted by Living with Hope and Cancer @ 10/28/2008 05:56:00 pm
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