WAITING FOR THE GAMMA KNIFE

Today and tomorrow are weird days -- as I'm just "waiting" for the Gamma Knife Day -- the significance being that they will do an MRI of my brain before the gamma Knife -- and THAT is when we'll see IF the tumors are still there.....!

I've had some pretty significant prayer/ministry since they were first seen -- and Marc Dupont challenged me to "refuse the tumors" -- saying, "We all know you were healed in January -- this is only the devil, Melanie..." I say, "Well, I know that, because ALL cancer comes from the devil...."
This is way past that – I am challenged to treat this as I did the "fake allergies" that came after I was healed of allergies -- took 9 months of telling it to "GO" -- but, I really WAS free. (This happened during the time when Autumn was so sharp in the spirit -- she told me, one day, "OHH! Now it makes sense to me. It's not really allergy -- it's just a spirit of infirmity imitating allergies!")

Can that spirit "fake" tumors on a scan? I don't know. I'll be the first to say -- I DON'T KNOW. But, I DO know that those "fake allergies" sure looked and felt real -- and if I'd gone to a Dr for it, that Dr. would definitely have diagnosed "allergies."

Right after Marc landed that one on me, I opened my Bible to the woman with the issue of blood -- she reached out -- and what Jesus said to her was ,"YOUR FAITH has healed you..." SO, I am determined to be IN THAT FAITH --- I always believed that when I told the allergies to go, they would -- and it was born out over and over, over 270+ days.....I am told that people near and dear to me believe that when the MRI is examined, they will say that the tumors are gone. I am declaring it, internally and out loud --- I can get there, as I continually send discouragement and hopelessness away -- as much as I have to fight them -- and as "reasonable" as they seem -- they are NOT from God! THAT is where I have to STAND.

The Lord has -- many times -- answered my questions with "We'll see..." I guess that's where I might be ---- we'll see. I DO know -- 5 days of fighting this fight -- that HE is the only thing that is really TRUE. Jesus IS the TRUTH. Nobody else can give me truth. Nobody else has absolute truth. Jesus IS the TRUTH --- and what MY own experience tells me is that I can trust Him -- He WILL be there -- He IS with me -- He IS in charge.

God's promises ARE true, because He can't function outside of TRUTH. He has no other agenda, and no other vocabulary, than truth.

Tomorrow is my LAST "waiting day" -- I'm nowhere near as calm as I'd like to be -- I'll trust Him to bring me into that, on Thursday. I guess that I don't really need it, tonight...