THE DAY BEFORE...
This is the "day before." The Gamma Knife procedure is tomorrow. The waiting will be over. I will know if the tumors were still there -- if so, the Gamma Knife procedure will progress, and it all ends with me being home to celebrate Autumn's birthday on the 8th. PRAISE GOD!
I woke up feeling much steadier than I have been feeling**, and told Dennis, "I know that God will give me the 'grit' to face this thing tomorrow...He always does." HALLELUJAH -- that IS the truth -- He ALWAYS does give me what I need, when I need it! Just thinking it through lifts me -- one thought leads to the next, and I am celebrating being in the hands of such a loving God...
An hour later, I find a tiny note that I wrote (who knows when??), and it becomes the most important little note I've ever written. It says, "DWELL IN POSSIBILITY."
Of course! HOW on earth could I have lost that place of HOPE that is so strong in me? Even I am surprised by this!
The Lord tells me two things: first, I have a ferocious enemy who hates me. (How awful would it be if my life didn't attract the enemy's attention? How awful would it be if he discounted me as a danger?) The second thing, He says, is that this is no worse than the opening of Terminal Five at Heathrow Airport. (The Brits will understand this...nobody else has to....) The opening seemed horrendous, but, it actually was "just a set-back. It is functioning well, now."
And, so am I! I AM DWELLING IN POSSIBILITY. I have my sermon ready for the medical staff, should they have to tell me that they can't find the tumors anymore.....and I have my lunch ready, should the procedure go on. Who knows what God has planned for tomorrow? I sure don't. But, I know that ANYTHING is possible, in Him!
**(Speaking of feelings...Dennis and I have a pattern for dealing with "not feeling well..." We look at whether what I am feeling is physical, emotional or spiritual. It will be one of those three things. If it is emotional or spiritual, we can change that -- we DO have authority over what we listen to in our heads, and even if I am snowed under by it, Dennis will not be, and can lead me back to truth. Even though I know this, I have been struggling...).
TODAY, however, I am not snowed under -- I am on top of the snow drift! I am dwelling in possibility, covered and protected by a BIG GOD! And I have all the grit I need to be at the Gamma Knife, tomorrow.
THANK YOU FOR YOUR PRAYERS!!
I woke up feeling much steadier than I have been feeling**, and told Dennis, "I know that God will give me the 'grit' to face this thing tomorrow...He always does." HALLELUJAH -- that IS the truth -- He ALWAYS does give me what I need, when I need it! Just thinking it through lifts me -- one thought leads to the next, and I am celebrating being in the hands of such a loving God...
An hour later, I find a tiny note that I wrote (who knows when??), and it becomes the most important little note I've ever written. It says, "DWELL IN POSSIBILITY."
Of course! HOW on earth could I have lost that place of HOPE that is so strong in me? Even I am surprised by this!
The Lord tells me two things: first, I have a ferocious enemy who hates me. (How awful would it be if my life didn't attract the enemy's attention? How awful would it be if he discounted me as a danger?) The second thing, He says, is that this is no worse than the opening of Terminal Five at Heathrow Airport. (The Brits will understand this...nobody else has to....) The opening seemed horrendous, but, it actually was "just a set-back. It is functioning well, now."
And, so am I! I AM DWELLING IN POSSIBILITY. I have my sermon ready for the medical staff, should they have to tell me that they can't find the tumors anymore.....and I have my lunch ready, should the procedure go on. Who knows what God has planned for tomorrow? I sure don't. But, I know that ANYTHING is possible, in Him!
**(Speaking of feelings...Dennis and I have a pattern for dealing with "not feeling well..." We look at whether what I am feeling is physical, emotional or spiritual. It will be one of those three things. If it is emotional or spiritual, we can change that -- we DO have authority over what we listen to in our heads, and even if I am snowed under by it, Dennis will not be, and can lead me back to truth. Even though I know this, I have been struggling...).
TODAY, however, I am not snowed under -- I am on top of the snow drift! I am dwelling in possibility, covered and protected by a BIG GOD! And I have all the grit I need to be at the Gamma Knife, tomorrow.
THANK YOU FOR YOUR PRAYERS!!
posted by Living with Hope and Cancer @ 8/06/2008 09:00:00 pm
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