In HIS hands!

All the world knows that we have had an election, and are looking at, and for, change. It is a larger reflection of the change that I am looking for , personally – but, it is with the same hope.

This nation is part of our inheritance -- we inherited it, many of us were born to it -- and now we have to decide HOW we will care for it. What IS our responsibility? To pray for it, cover it in prayer, and tend it daily, that it does not rot or decay!

Whenever we moved house, we always wanted to know that we left a house better, nicer, than it had been when we moved in. That house should not show years of dissolving disregard, and disarray, if we had been living there. We certainly have that kind of responsibility with our nation. My mother is already repenting and crying about WHAT we are leaving to our children and grand-children.

I have a different paradigm : Perhaps they will find themselves needing to press into God, needing to fight the fight that seems to land upon every generation --- and learn to be perfected by complete dependence on God. SO many generations have had to do that --- we can't think that God intends us to find the perfect system, and create our own earthly paradise....These are some of the things that I have to think about, as I CONTINUE to fight cancer.

I have to admit that some days, I DON’T fight cancer -- some days, I just have "life" and disregard the attack against me. I read Devin Mitchell's weekly Shabbat letter, in which he talks frankly about guarding Israel, as part of the the Israeli army --- those letters have taught me that there is no "time out" when under attack -- or even when threatened with attack.

Now, what can I do? LIVE connected to God --- my only sure defense. There is no "wall of health" that I can build, to protect me from the cancer that is ALREADY within my walls. I can have some days off --- but not as many as I have "on." The cancer never slows down, or takes time off.

My newest shift : Remembering that "fighting", when led by the Lord, is not physically grueling. It is gentle and soft and steady and can be done from a flopped-in-bed position. To fight this attack against me, I need only to keep my hand in HIS hand -- whispering to Him, thanking Him, listening to Him. The defensive part is to NOT listen to what fear says, to what despair says -- it is to "JUST SAY NO."

The cancer won't go away. My wishes are completely futile, in this. There is no exit door. I have gone every place I thought I would find healing. I have had thousands praying for me. I have spent my own time in prayer. I land, over and over again, on complete dependence in GOD. I land, over and over again, on trusting Him, in all things -- even unto death.

Dennis and I have learned that it is IMPORTANT for us to learn how to take bad news well -- how to live through the shock and move into the wonder and expectation. GOD WILL NOT ABANDON US --- and that means, it will be a RIDE to watch Him rescue us!! WHAT will He do? WHEN, and HOW? I am already watching, eyes on the horizon, for His lead!!

We will -- no doubt -- have to learn some things the hard way. GOD WILL STILL LOVE US, AND LEAD US. We will -- no doubt -- have disappointments. GOD WILL STILL BE IN CHARGE. We will -- no doubt -- have some BIG fights ahead, and consequences to live through. GOD WILL BE FAITHFUL AND STEADFAST.

Serving a BIG GOD,

Melanie

All the world knows that our nation has had an election, and is looking at, and for, change.

It is a larger reflection of the change that I am looking for , personally – but, it is with the same hope.

This nation is part of our inheritance -- we inherited it, many of us were born to it -- and now we have to decide HOW we will care for it. What IS our responsibility? To pray for it, cover it in prayer, and tend it daily, that it does not rot or decay!

Whenever we moved house, we always wanted to know that we left a house better, nicer, than it had been when we moved in. That house should not show years of dissolving disregard, and disarray, if we had been living there. We certainly have that kind of responsibility with our nation. My mother is already repenting and crying about WHAT we are leaving to our children and grand-children.

I have a different paradigm : Perhaps they will find themselves needing to press into God, needing to fight the fight that seems to land upon every generation --- and learn to be perfected by complete dependence on God. SO many generations have had to do that --- we can't think that God intends us to find the perfect system, and create our own earthly paradise....These are some of the things that I have to think about, as I continue to fight cancer.

I have to admit that some days, I DON’T fight cancer -- some days, I just have "life" and disregard the attack against me. I read Devin Mitchell's weekly Shabbat letter, in which he talks frankly about guarding Israel, as part of the the Israeli army --- those letters have taught me that there is no "time out" when under attack -- or even when threatened with attack.

Now, what can I do? LIVE connected to God --- my only sure defense. There is no "wall of health" that I can build, to protect me from the cancer that is already within my walls. I can have some days off --- but not as many as I have "on." The cancer never slows down, or takes time off.

My newest shift : Remembering that "fighting", when led by the Lord, is not physically grueling! It is gentle and soft and steady and can be done from a flopped-in-bed position. To fight this attack against me, I need only to keep my hand in HIS hand -- whispering to Him, thanking Him, listening to Him. The defense part is to NOT listen to what fear says, or to what despair says -- it is to "JUST SAY NO."

The cancer won't go away. My wishes are completely futile, in this. There is no exit door. I have gone every place I thought I would find healing. I have had thousands praying for me. I have spent my own time in prayer. I land, over and over again, on complete dependence in GOD. I land, again, on trusting Him, in all things -- even unto death.

Dennis and I have learned that it is IMPORTANT for us to learn how to take bad news well -- how to live through the shock and move into the wonder and expectation. GOD WILL NOT ABANDON US --- and that means, it will be a RIDE to watch Him rescue us!! WHAT will He do? WHEN, and HOW? I am already watching, eyes on the horizon, for His lead!!

We will -- no doubt -- have to learn some things the hard way. GOD WILL STILL LOVE US, AND LEAD US. We will -- no doubt -- have disappointments. GOD WILL STILL BE IN CHARGE. We will -- no doubt -- have some BIG fights ahead, and consequences to live through. GOD WILL BE FAITHFUL AND STEADFAST.

Serving a BIG GOD,

Melanie

WAITING FOR THE GAMMA KNIFE

Today and tomorrow are weird days -- as I'm just "waiting" for the Gamma Knife Day -- the significance being that they will do an MRI of my brain before the gamma Knife -- and THAT is when we'll see IF the tumors are still there.....!

I've had some pretty significant prayer/ministry since they were first seen -- and Marc Dupont challenged me to "refuse the tumors" -- saying, "We all know you were healed in January -- this is only the devil, Melanie..." I say, "Well, I know that, because ALL cancer comes from the devil...."
This is way past that – I am challenged to treat this as I did the "fake allergies" that came after I was healed of allergies -- took 9 months of telling it to "GO" -- but, I really WAS free. (This happened during the time when Autumn was so sharp in the spirit -- she told me, one day, "OHH! Now it makes sense to me. It's not really allergy -- it's just a spirit of infirmity imitating allergies!")

Can that spirit "fake" tumors on a scan? I don't know. I'll be the first to say -- I DON'T KNOW. But, I DO know that those "fake allergies" sure looked and felt real -- and if I'd gone to a Dr for it, that Dr. would definitely have diagnosed "allergies."

Right after Marc landed that one on me, I opened my Bible to the woman with the issue of blood -- she reached out -- and what Jesus said to her was ,"YOUR FAITH has healed you..." SO, I am determined to be IN THAT FAITH --- I always believed that when I told the allergies to go, they would -- and it was born out over and over, over 270+ days.....I am told that people near and dear to me believe that when the MRI is examined, they will say that the tumors are gone. I am declaring it, internally and out loud --- I can get there, as I continually send discouragement and hopelessness away -- as much as I have to fight them -- and as "reasonable" as they seem -- they are NOT from God! THAT is where I have to STAND.

The Lord has -- many times -- answered my questions with "We'll see..." I guess that's where I might be ---- we'll see. I DO know -- 5 days of fighting this fight -- that HE is the only thing that is really TRUE. Jesus IS the TRUTH. Nobody else can give me truth. Nobody else has absolute truth. Jesus IS the TRUTH --- and what MY own experience tells me is that I can trust Him -- He WILL be there -- He IS with me -- He IS in charge.

God's promises ARE true, because He can't function outside of TRUTH. He has no other agenda, and no other vocabulary, than truth.

Tomorrow is my LAST "waiting day" -- I'm nowhere near as calm as I'd like to be -- I'll trust Him to bring me into that, on Thursday. I guess that I don't really need it, tonight...