LIVING with HOPE AND CANCER

As if I am going to live.... Lots of people don't know what to say to me. That's okay. I remember being at a loss for words, wondering what to say to someone who has cancer. It's easier to know from this side, from inside the body that is fighting. Can I help you?

Monday, January 30, 2006

My Own Bed.......The Thrill is NOT gone!

Last month, I was in an Emergency Room being told by three neurologists that I needed emergency brain surgery. I listened to their consensus and then asked, “Are you sure that I can’t go home and get into my own bed? I would really like that...”

Their response was “Here’s the problem. If you go home and get into your own bed.....chances are GREAT that you will never wake up....”

I remember saying, “Thank you for clarifying!”

The emergency brain surgery was the next day. My family and friends were on-hand. It was an amazingly weird experience – brain surgery AND the Neuro-ICU ward. In the end, I got to go home two days after surgery.

My continuing story is this --- I have now slept in my own bed 21 nights, and I have awakened 21+ times!! I celebrate EACH and EVERY time that I wake up!! Who knew what a wonder that is!?! I am so excited, to wake up!! The thrill is not wearing off...

The other morning, I awoke knowing that I needed the toilet. This is BIG! It means that the internal messages are being sent, AND being received. I celebrated the trip to the toilet! On the way back, I was returning to my own bed, in my own room, in my own house.....and upon making it to the bed, I reached over and felt my husband – ALSO STILL ALIVE!!

That topped it --- I spent 2 hours completely absorbed in JOY and GRATITUDE!!! Thank You, Thank You, God!!!! I had a great party, celebrating!! WHAT a way to start a day!!

I am hoping never to lose that wonder! Life is made up of things we no longer recognize as being wonderful --- I don’t want to let any of it go by! I don’t want to miss any of it! We are surrounded by wonders, and they are worthy of looking for, recognizing and celebrating!!

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